Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Holding onto the center
I seem to be struggling more and more, lately, with how my time is spent and what is valuable to me. I know I am one of those people who values my time alone. Two years ago we built my studio and it is my favorite place to be. Still, it is also important to be with friends and to contribute to this small community of fabric artists that has developed here. But finding the right balance is challenging. Even people I love wear me out with their talk, talk, talk and demands and contrariness and judgement. Sometimes I just want to stay home. Be alone. This month the balance is off—too many meetings and all that jazz. And I'll bet you have already figured out that when I push myself out there it is usually totally worth the effort. What a contradiction.
Jane Dunnewold was the speaker at Columbia Fiber Arts Guild this morning. A beautiful talk and accompanying photos. She talked to me. And oddly enough, everyone else seemed to think she was talking to them! "Find your center," she said. "Hang onto it." Listen to yourself. Find your own way. Teach yourself. Do your work. There is joy in making. It was what I needed to hear today. It was really good that I went.
It was 8 years ago today that I wrote my first blog post. I have written more than 1500 posts in those 8 years. I am still amazed that anyone reads this. Even if no one read it I would write. It has become so important to me. But the fact that you do read and even comment makes it more than just my own feeble thoughts. It makes it a conversation and I am so much richer for that connection. Thank you.